Week #1

Lil intro for ya'll... I'm going to start blogging every week. Like updating the same post throughout the week if that makes sense. Tbh I really need to write more, I do enjoy it and if thats the field I want to get into then might as well. 

Sunday: So today I'm going to try so hard to lose the weight I've gained since 8th grade. Mind you I've only grown half an inch since then, making me a whopping 5'3.5". Yeah great I know, but that means more heels hehehe. But I've also gained 20lbs, was 120 now I'm 140... Some of it is muscle from starting lacrosse year round and my obsession with squatting but I would Like to get back down to 130 or 125 before summer or even spring break. the nice thing is that I have lacrosse everyday after school so the workout for the weekdays is taken care of but I think I'm going to go to the gym on the weekends and do weights. I really want to lose the weight so badly. Ive gone through so many phases of being motivated to lose the weight but I never go trough with it. So thats why I have a list of reasons why, a pinterest board of clothes I want to buy once I do drop the weight, and this blog to keep me accountable. Stay tuned 

Monday/Tuesday: Had a lacrosse game, won that by a landslide. My team in undefeated, holla. But being a low defender kinda sucks because the attackers get all the glory but defense is the backbone of the team so theres that. Aside from that I've been feeling down about everything. Just over school and the people in it, even people who I was super close with get on my nerves. Hopefully I will be feeling better tomorrow. 

hello again

To say the least its been a while since I've been on here. Sorry about that.  But I figured if I'm going to be majoring in journalism I might as well write more. I've just had a lot on my mind lately and I figured no one reads these posts anyways to might as well dispense some of my life on here. Why the hell not.

So I've decided on a college to attend which I don't want to say yet because of safety reasons but as far as majoring goes I'm double majoring in Film & Television and Journalism. Hopefully to get into the political scheme or entertainment. I always thought being a Fox News contributor would be fun. But everything is still in the air plus I haven't even graduated yet. Speaking of graduating I cannot freaking wait to throw my cap in the air and get out of this hell hole.

Lately I've the feeling of an elephant sitting on my chest and my heart racing all the time all because of a stupid boy. Me being a strong person in general I don't like to cry because I don't like to be seen as weak. Thats high school for ya, drama over a freakin boy. I don't know what to do at this point. Like I want to cry But I can't. Like theres a brick wall all over the interior of my body not letting anything out, I can't articulate my feelings as all, they just don't make sense.

**24hrs later**
Well I got my shit together after talking it out more. This boy situation is resolved and were good now, typical teenage girl whoop whoop. For the most part today was a pretty good, I was in a relatively good mood all day so thats a plus.

I will try so very hard to post here more often, I like writing like this, its fun.

See you all soon!